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Originally posted by Aubyanne:
Hi there, zirr1.There could be some tough lessons here regarding trust; I say could be. His NEP tightly on your NNODE deeply colours your relationship, which makes NEP issues front-and-centre. 'Magical' indeed.
SUN/MARS and MARS opposite MARS creates an underlying tension with a potent magnetism. This could be very driving, or present an undercurrent of agitation. This is going to feed into the sexual dynamics which have you in the Martian driver's seat, conjunct his VENUS, widely. It's not always easy, being female MARS.
So what's up with his NEP? A few things.
He's deeply insecure, which was hardly created in this lifeline. Many opportunities here will present themselves for him to confront these issues and turn them into ultimate strengths (CHIRON/NNODE in 1H). He also assumes they're visible to everyone, and feels doubly exposed.
Through no fault of your own, those waters do become stirred (MOON conjunct PLUTO quincunx CHIRON (2º). But more than anything, the insecurity is what drives him to keep mum.
You're both locked into a relationship by the NEP/NNODE quindecile your SUN. It's so crucial to your growth, and to him resolving his issues, you both remain inside this holding pattern.
Long and short of it is, like anything, he's got to step up emotionally, and you have to stay with it.
That NEP/NNODE could be beautiful indeed, but with CHIRON banging away in that quincunx, forcing your MOON and his PLUTO to change -- something's gotta give. He's here for healing, and could prove a wonderful source of it.
Change is hard, but some relationships demand it of us.
What are NEP issues? Are you using 'Magical' sarcastically or do you believe it was magical? It is frustrating for me as there is a large amount of barriers and awkwardness between us now when I thought I had met my soul mate. I have a feeling we have a connection that lasts many lives but we just aren't ready yet in this one..
Could his insecurities give him the need to hold on to all his past relationships? I feel as though he needs confirmation his ex's still love him.. Like they are still his, in a way.
Yes I seem to be the one who takes the lead sexually. I don't really want to be the one but it has ended up like that.
"But more than anything, the insecurity is what drives him to keep mum. " What does to keep mum mean?
Interesting that we are locked in a holding pattern to keep us together. I feel almost like we are trapped together. Both of us are the type of people to stay with people even if it's not working and it seems to be the case with us for a while now..
Do you think he is here to heal me? I have experienced a lot of healing from him.. I think to his dismay though as he didn't realize at the beginning my issues that have come up to the surface somehow with him which is odd as they've always been tightly controlled.